Perhaps the only reason I haven’t been able to start my life again is I still save you somewhere in my heart. Even though I’ve said get the fuck out of my life a thousand times, I can’t deny the fact that I hardly forget you. Why? Yes, why?
Why should I be in this situation again? Why can’t I get over you? Why can’t I get over this feeling? What is it that makes me want you? I should have got rid of you a long time ago. I know that there’s no story between us. Even if there were, would that make any difference?
If only memories were allowed to be taken, then I would give up the memory of you and me. I’d let this sink to the deepest ocean so that no one would ever find out.
I have always been waiting the moment when you truly disappear from my soul. I realize the waits will never be a piece of cake, but I really wish I could get it through though I have no idea how long it will take. I am putting as much effort as I am willing to. So, please liberate me from your shadow, allow me to take a sip of a new life, let me treasure a new world.
(a reflection after another dream of you)
